The other day I did a google search, I was curious to see what pops up when someone searches for healing the storm. I was happy to see that my website and blog was listed on the first page of the search results. However, it was midway down the page. Preceding my listing were a number of webpages for a magical healing spell for the game World of Warcraft. The healing spell is called the healing storm. Since I am not a gamer and I’ve never played World of Warcraft, I decided out of curiosity to check out the link. I clicked on the link and found the healing storm spell not only has the ability to heal the player, it also heals up to six additional allied players who are nearby. I thought that was pretty cool, you cast a spell and suddenly you and six of your closest friend are magically healed and restored to 150% strength. I thought how great that would be if we could just cast a spell and all of a sudden everyone is healed instantly. I would imagine it would make dealing with our trauma, hurts, painful experience and life’s problems so much easier. Simply cast a spell and experience instant healing.
Unfortunately, there are no healing storm spells for our lives. There is no instant healing from our trauma, no immediate healing of our emotional pain, struggles or heartaches. There is no gathering of hurting people for a mass healing experience. Trauma does not magically disappear. I think deep down inside, we all have the hope that one day our trauma and their symptoms will simply go away. Often times, we have the expectations when we enter into treatment or therapy that the struggles of our trauma will magically disappear. When they do not disappear, we give up trying, we give up on treatment, we give up on therapy. We give up practicing our coping skills and then declare they do not work. Sometimes we admit that coping skills work for others, but they will never work for me because my trauma is different. So we simply give up and continue to allow our trauma to led us down a road of defeat.
My own experience in dealing with my trauma has been a long and difficult journey. Over the course of my struggles I’ve been hospitalized six times and have gone through years of counseling. Not because I’ve failed at treatment or counseling but because my trauma is complex and encompasses my entire being. As I look back on my treatments and counseling appointments, I realize over the years, I have slowly learned to deal with my trauma. I’ve learned so many things, I have learned to over came my suicidal tendencies, learned to recognize and accept my trauma. I learned to overcame the darkness of my trauma and how to contained it’s power over me. I learned how to cope and deal with the symptoms of my trauma. I have learned how to live in the moment, how to stop living in the past and most importantly for me, I stopped living in the “what could have been” world. All this has taken years to accomplish, each step was difficult, painful, agonizing. Each step brought me closer to living life that is not controlled by my trauma. There were many times I wanted to give up, there were times that I did give up. Times I chose to withdraw for long periods of time. There were times that my counseling stagnated and it stopped being productive and I had to find a new counselor. But I kept going, kept trying, kept working and kept overcoming.
Of course, I would be remissed if I did not acknowledge the role my faith in God has played in my healing so far. I truly believe, true healing will never take place until we come to God and give Him all of our burdens and troubles. For me my emotional and spiritual healing started when I finally gave over my hurt, anger, frustration, resentment and fear to the Lord. The psalmist writes in Psalms 55:22 “Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” Peter also writes in 1 Peter 5:7 “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” In our journey of healing we are not alone, we do not walk the dark road alone nor face the struggles of our trauma on our own. We have one, who we can cast all our cares, all our fears, all our anxieties and all our struggles from our trauma. The key is calling upon the Lord, If you do, he will listen and respond.